Sunday, September 14, 2014

Developmental Profile II



I need to update my Developmental Profile, http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2011/03/developmental-profile.html  I wrote this when I wasn't using my right side at all.  http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2014/08/my-parralyzed-hand.html shows that I do use it now. I was an Infant Development Specialist for a long time. A Developmental Profile was generated at the beginning and throughout services, to document skill levels, needs, and progress. The children served had or were at-risk of having neurological problems. Nothing like that exists for adults as adults usually don't go through childhood development. I also have the knowledge to write about this now and I do so with one finger. These are indicators of a rare disorder I have not been diagnosed with. What appears to be developmental growth (different from childhood developmental growth) would be activation of adult stem cells. This is also not diagnosed in me.

"A neurosurgical diagnosis of posterior fosa intracerebellar hemorrhage and obstructive hydrocephalus and intraventricular hemorrhage possibly due to arteriovenous malformation was made" is my original diagnosis. At the hospital I was at prior to coming home, I was trained to say I was "semi-vegetative." I also was the only "vegetable" that talked. (My speech was poor and not widely understood, so "she must be messed up" mentally. Not said exactly like this, but still said.)

I begin with motor. On my left hand, the hand I type with, I am adding more dexterity to my middle finger. I use an inferior pincer grasp very well with this hand. I have used the neat pincer grasp (pinching) with this hand a few times, but it was conscious. It's not really emerging yet. I'm using an inferior pincer grasp (thumb against the side of my forefinger) on my right hand. It is somewhere between emerging and fully incorporated. I believe the hand was more developed than the arm. Physical therapy should note this. 'Thumb against the forefinger' is the same as using the thumb to hit fire on a video game controller. An inferior pincer grasp isn't good at picking up crumbs.


As far as gross motor I still am in a wheel chair. I do stand longer, but I discovered why I do not walk by looking at an old picture.

 
It is hard to walk with just one leg. See how one foot turns in? I'm barely putting any weight on it. I'm pushing to a stand with mostly my left leg. That means I need to work on my right. I can only bear weight on my left leg.

Speech has greatly improved. There is a short video, http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2014/02/hows-my-speech.html I will actually answer the phone now. My "No thank you" is understood. 

Self-help is faster, but there isn't any documentation to show. "Gosh, you're done already" isn't something I've tracked.

Social continues to not be an issue. For not being conscious, I sure have a lot of friends.

Cognition continues to skyrocket. I'm asked to remember trivial things for family members. I've become a memory storage file. Facts and concepts, I know quite a few. Rather than spit them out, I apply them. Much of my cognitive skill is seen in my writing.

Although I possess these cognitive skills, I am "decerebrate/decorticate" acording to my initial hospital transfer record. Some in my family reported they were told I was brain dead.

Oh yes, I also have a keen "faculty for observation and deduction."



I will think like this.

Saturday, September 6, 2014

The Order of Coming Back



Cognitive was first...when my eyes were open. I already had hearing. Then was social. Next was fine motor. Just wiggling. It has taken lots of therapy to get to the movement seen. Speech followed. It was only sounds. Finally gross motor. I'm asked if I walk yet. This is the last thing, and I'm not there yet. I am also doing this myself, and am not a licensed Physical Therapist. Yes, I used to work on this with 2 year olds, but I'm not 2 anymore.

The "five senses" would be in the cognitive area. I'd have to think back since this all came back years ago. It wasn't a full come-back. It was gradual, and required some learning. Some of the beginnings were seen in the first few months, but would take months to develop. Even breathing was not immediate, http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2014/04/my-hole.html.

Hearing was definitely first. I could hear before my eyes were even open. Coma scales talk about lighter coma as it ends. This would be that. Vision is last. I was actually blind in my right eye and it was patched. (I'd wiggle that patch off. It gives credit to rewiring. The eye itself could see, but the brain couldn't make sense of the information.) Feeling came after hearing, just before movement on parts that could move. I couldn't feel a needle stick (ie. blood draw) on a paralyzed arm. Although I was NPO (no food by mouth), taste came back with smell. I have reflux and the formula put in me would come up in my mouth. It wasn't pleasant. Smell has been amazing. Since I was low vision, I could tell if a male nurse was working by his heavy cologne. He didn't even have to come in my room. My vision has since greatly improved, but my keen sense of smell remains.

I describe a process for re-learning smells, http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2012/10/breathe-deep_11.html . This is not covered in any therapy I know of. Occupational Therapy may have something under Sensory Integration, but it is not widely used.

 



Tuesday, August 26, 2014

My "Paralyzed" Hand





In the picture you see me waiving my left hand. That means I used my right hand to take the picture. I move my right hand? I was told it was paralyzed. My left hand moves better. I could have done this picture the other way around. I had a couple. I liked this one better and discarded those.

Instead of paralyzed, it is greatly delayed. It all goes back to rewiring now. My right side is taking a lot longer to rewire.


Long ago I wrote, http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2011/08/neurogenic-therapy.html I've been doing ART a long time on my "paralyzed" side. I never thought it was paralyzed. I couldn't do much, but I could sleep. It started in the hospital, where nurses could roll me on my side. Now I can roll myself. It's the position that is important. Obviously it's not instant. How many years now? It does work, though. Don't say paralyzed. Say greatly delayed.
 
 
 
 
He can't move...or can he?

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Amazing Order of Events




Deductive thinking in neuroscience, applied to me.... I am still unconscious, so this is all hypothetical.

The AVM bleed originally occurred in the cerebellum. This could have triggered savant syndrome. So this is first in this strange order of events, but it's not over. The bleed continued. The bleed wasn't stopped until I got to a third place. I first went to a clinic. I lost consciousness at the clinic and was put on an ambulance. There was a very long drive to a hospital. The hospital put me on a helicopter to a trauma center. The trauma center stopped the bleed.

Now I've been stuck on my blood. I thought there must be something about it. No. It's the blood flow. The bleed started in my cerebellum, or at the top of my spine. I was told "blood ran down your neck." The blood didn't pool. It ran down my spine. This would be second in this incredible order. The first is savant syndrome, and the second is the blood flow.

Third, the combination of savant syndrome and running blood triggers the adult stem cells in the spine. It's the order of events that makes the odds so incredible. (I have read that the spinal cord is thought not to have stem cells. I have also read bone marrow does have stem cells. Isn't there bone marrow in the spine? Mystery there is solved.)

Now the stem cells are responsible for my recovery. Intelligence and intense memory are due to savant syndrome. Neurogenesis happened. There have been people who have thought neurogenesis happened. Well, that's what stem cells do. NDE (Near Death Experience) happened? Yes, it did happen. Prior to my recovery I was VERY close to death. If it wasn't for the savant syndrome/stem cell combo I already would have been dead. Stem cells are known for their growth. They started the growing and healing process before I even had surgery. I should have already died, but these had kicked in and already started working.
 

The stem cells have further implications. I will continue to have neurogenesis until I die? They would have been triggered in the beginning, and I haven't stopped yet. Is there some sort of cycle created? I wonder now if the same stem cells activated in the beginning are now doing this, or does my body now produce stem cells? I'm not equipped to answer that one. Outward behavior suggests stem cells or a miracle.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Did I Find It?



" I've been in my mind,
It's such a fine line
That keeps me searching for a heart of gold."




"When you live with yourself, you become more self-reliant and self-aware. Also, you realize what is important in your life." http://www.quora.com/What-is-something-every-person-should-experience-at-least-once-in-a-lifetime

I've been trapped in my mind for years. Was I doing "mindfulness"? "Mindfulness is "the intentional, accepting and non-judgmental focus of one's attention on the emotions, thoughts and sensations occurring in the present moment" http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mindfulness_%28psychology%29

From the American Psychological Association...

Empirically supported benefits of mindfulness


The term "mindfulness" has been used to refer to a psychological state of awareness, the practices that promote this awareness, a mode of processing information and a character trait. To be consistent with most of the research reviewed in this article, we define mindfulness as a moment-to-moment awareness of one's experience without judgment. In this sense, mindfulness is a state and not a trait. While it might be promoted by certain practices or activities, such as meditation, it is not equivalent to or synonymous with them...

Reduced rumination. Several studies have shown that mindfulness reduces rumination...

Stress reduction. Many studies show that practicing mindfulness reduces stress...

Boosts to working memory. Improvements to working memory appear to be another benefit of mindfulness, research finds...

Focus. ...Mindfulness meditation practice and self-reported mindfulness were correlated directly with cognitive flexibility and attentional functioning (Moore and Malinowski, 2009).

Less emotional reactivity. Research also supports the notion that mindfulness meditation decreases emotional reactivity. In a study of people who had anywhere from one month to 29 years of mindfulness meditation practice...

More cognitive flexibility. Another line of research suggests that in addition to helping people become less reactive, mindfulness meditation may also give them greater cognitive flexibility...

Relationship satisfaction. Several studies find that a person's ability to be mindful can help predict relationship satisfaction...

Other benefits. Mindfulness has been shown to enhance self-insight, morality, intuition and fear modulation, all functions associated with the brain's middle prefrontal lobe area. Evidence also suggests that mindfulness meditation has numerous health benefits, including increased immune functioning (Davidson et al., 2003; see Grossman, Niemann, Schmidt, & Walach, 2004 for a review of physical health benefits), improvement to well-being (Carmody & Baer, 2008) and reduction in psychological distress (Coffey & Hartman, 2008; Ostafin et al., 2006). In addition, mindfulness meditation practice appears to increase information processing speed (Moore & Malinowski, 2009), as well as decrease task effort and having thoughts that are unrelated to the task at hand (Lutz et al., 2009).

http://www.apa.org/monitor/2012/07-08/ce-corner.aspx



The person singing above suffered a serious brain injury, http://www.cnn.com/2005/SHOWBIZ/Music/04/01/neil.young/ 

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Not My Game



I still don't know how to play soduko / sudoku or however you spell it. When I got on the internet I found a retired neuropsych's blog. He suggested mahjong. so that's what I played.

su·do·ku

[soo-doh-koo] 


noun
a puzzle printed on a square grid of nine large squares each subdivided into nine smaller squares, the object of which is to fill in each of the 81 squares so that each column, row, and large square contains every number from 1 to 9. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/sudoku


Mahjong must build memory, something like visual pattern recognition. (That term just popped in my head.)

Things like that just are. "Visual Pattern Recognition" is not a term I've seen before. There will be terms and concepts I have no clue how I know. I've even surprised myself with knowing medication names. Previous exposure can't be used as an excuse. Some of those concepts did not even exist when I was in school. The whole concept of "neurogenesis" occurring in people did not exist until years after receiving my BA.

"I woke up and just knew what had to be done." http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2013/03/give-me-beat-boys.html  Just like I "know" terms and concepts. I don't question it. It just is...and I use it. 

Thursday, July 24, 2014

I Haven't Enjoyed It




Enjoy it? Not even. It hasn't been enjoyable. I've been making it liveable, just a bit bearable.

I describe it, http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2011/08/description.html and record a lot of my ideas. I write other stuff as well. "Enjoy the show," though? That hasn't been the case. It has been a learning and teaching experience, though.

Hopefully, all this writing it down will help someone else.

It's been more like the following song, The Scientist by Coldplay.


I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

My BA is in psychology, but it's a "soft science." I've had the introductory courses in math and biology, but psychology is rich in philosophy. Instead of explaining the neuroscience behind what's happening, I'll ask "why" is it happening. I'm big on statistics. I'll work on figuring it out...through all the obstacles.... (Did I tell you I'm listed as unconscious?)