Thursday, June 25, 2015

I Re-Set My Clock


I sure don't look 45. I figured I "re-set my clock" with the neurogenesis. The way it happened makes me wonder if it will be perpetual, though. With re-setting my clock, signs of aging will be delayed.

The neurogenesis was the repair of neural damage in my brain cells. Aging would be damage to all cells. If it was my stem cells that repaired damage, then there would be repair throughout my body.

Enough information does not exist yet to determine any outcome. I used the word "if". This is all possibility. We don't know for sure unless it does or does not happen.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

The Only Reason?

Neuroplasticity can't possibly be the only reason for re-acquiring lost skills due to a brain injury. Here's why...

My right hand was paralyzed. Not only does it move now, but I can sign the alphabet in ASL sign language. I do not use sign language.

Now if neuroplasticity is the only reason for regaining lost skills, then I could say that other people that have regained hand movement can also sign. Everyone has this ability.

This isn't true? I created something new?

Sunday, June 7, 2015

1000 Problems

The number 1000 bothered me.  'We will be able to live to 1,000'

It sounds like do one thing, and be able to live to a thousand. I looked more into it. Mostly because that one thing may have already happened to me. The other is people in general should know what to expect.

Doing one thing is not what Aubrey de Grey is saying exactly. He's proposing that one person have several treatments of one type. Each treatment resets a person's clock. So the person having treatment goes 80 years, has a treatment, resets his/her clock, goes another 80 years, and resets their clock again. They do this until they reach a thousand. Technically, a person could go on forever.

However, there is a possibility that a person will not need several treatments. "When a stem cell divides, each new cell has the potential either to remain a stem cell or become another type of cell with a more specialized function."

In many people, it will be the specialized cells to develop. For longevity a new treatment will have to be done because the stem cell division is done. However, there exists the possibility new stem cells were created. This makes a new treatment unnecessary. This type of data does not exist. I can only say there is a possibility.


The one thing that may have occurred with me is a release of my own adult stem cells. It may not have only fixed my immediate problem, but also thrown me into this longevity issue.

Enough information does not exist yet to determine any outcome.

Sunday, May 31, 2015

The Thousand Year Question

How long can I be in a coma? I'm not physically, but I am on paper. This has caused problems, but nothing that is currently dire.

Now here is something unusual that might have occurred to a biologist or someone with background in biology. Aging is the accumulation of damage in the cells. If this damage is repaired, then there is no aging.

What I proposed is that neurogenesis happened due to adult stem cell release. Damage in neural cells is repaired. I can write.

I'm not just a head. I do have a whole body. Cell repair won't only be neural. The accumulation of damage to other cells in my body will be repaired. This has implications, 'We will be able to live to 1,000'

I'm alive when I am supposed to be dead. People need to start asking questions.

 I did not replace my brain. I proposed that adult stem cells repaired it.

I go back to how long can I be in a coma. Will I be in a coma for a thousand years? That sounds ridiculous, but this whole thing is. I've already explained why I wouldn't die when expected. It's called surgery to remove the cause, but the government wouldn't do it. Now I'm still in a coma and not dead. Something is probably going on to remove accumulated damage from all my cells, not just the neural ones that allow me to write this.

I will I be in a thousand years?



Friday, May 22, 2015

Why Was I Prepared?

I woke up and knew. What I experienced was covered by knowledge I used in work. Where I had been prior to leaving and having a brain bleed...

I was primarily in the home of the child receiving services from where I worked. I was basically a special education teacher for children not old enough to go to school yet. My goal was simple...try to get these kids to where they didn't need a special class, or at least a lot less. So when I woke from a coma and was told I had a bleed, I knew. I would over-hear medical professionals name specific brain parts. I knew what those were. I thought, "Wait! I need that part to understand."

Something was already odd when I woke.

I was also the manager of that program. I didn't like doing it, but I bossed people around. I couldn't talk, but I could dictate orders. It wasn't a quick and easy process, but I'd do it. Again, odd.

Now I write.

Has anyone ever asked "why"? Why did I have neurological education? My main degree is in psychology. Why did I work with brain injured children? We didn't call it rehab. We called what we did education. It was the same thing. This is just more strange stuff.

Why did I know what I had? Why did I know what to do? Why was I prepared for this?

Monday, May 4, 2015

False Despair

Yahoo asked if one would rather live in false hope or false despair. The top answer... "If those are the only two choices, probably false hope. But don't get too down on self delusion. Research has shown that part of the reason that the best athletes are so successful is because the[y] believe that they are indestructible. If you believe that you can do anything, there is a good chance that you will be able to do more than someone who knows his or her limits." ( ...The title? Can't Damage Me )

I have been afraid of giving false hope. In an age where I shouldn't have recovery, I am. It makes you wonder...why? It shows, though, that recovery is possible. It's not easy. I didn't take some magic pill.

The idea the brain couldn't heal took over. It's called neurological nihilism. We see it in the way a brain injury is treated. "... left hospital in a wheelchair with the neurologist warning he could expect no further significant gains." Doctors were giving despair.

I can say this is not true. On paper I am still not conscious. (That one will have to be fixed, but there's now a mess of problems to go with it.) This despair that was being given was false.

So there was a feeling nothing could be done. Doctors gave this feeling to their patients through the prognosis. There was nothing you could do, so a patient and family do nothing. A false despair is given to patients and families and nothing is done.

I saw differently. I saw change. I worked with children for so long. Kids change. You couldn't give them a set prognosis because they could show you that you that you were close or terribly wrong. Way before children, I spent a short stint on adult remediation. Adults could still do the changes kids did, but it was harder and slower.

I go back to the false hope I'm so afraid of giving people. I do give hope, but it is not false. I want to say it could be unrealistic, though. If you do nothing (absolutely nothing but wish) then don't expect any changes. You gotta do something,
This hope is a lot better than the despair. It's not false. It's just hard to come by.


Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Tracking My Development (nobody else has)

"Cognitive was first...when my eyes were open. I already had hearing. Then was social. Next was fine motor. Just wiggling. It has taken lots of therapy to get to the movement seen. Speech followed. It was only sounds. Finally gross motor."

It has taken me 12 years to get my hands moving to be seen. That's 12 years of research wasted! My right hand is still not great, but movement can be seen and discerned.

There has been order. Development closely follows the progression of childhood development. Skills may be attained fast or slow, though. When I say slow, that could be years. I believe that has to do with neural wiring available. Working on a skill creates wiring. So this process can take as long as a person takes to grow.

The left hand is the hand I am using to type. I used marbles to mostly get to what you are seeing. In the hospital, the over-bed table had a compartment tray. The activity nurse had a container of marbles in her closet. She put some marbles in a compartment on the tray. I'd move those marbles one by one to another compartment. An Occupation Therapist would know I was doing tactile exercise.

You can see that my right hand is coming along. I'm in no hurry, though. Right now it is able to move and is consistent. Next would be grasping objects. I do this a little bit now, but want to get better.

What you see now is typed with my left index finger. I use assistive technology on the computer, as in making capital letters. After arms might be legs, but I don't get physical therapy. I do what I can. That is more than nothing, but progress is slow. Walking will come eventually. A Physical Therapist would do it faster.

My speech wasn't tracked at all. I went from making sounds with private insurance to fully talking now? That area is weak. Talking fully came mostly in the hospital and nursing homes. I was a Medicaid patient there and did not receive any speech therapy. I'm now Medicare and continue not to receive any therapy. My speech will continue to get better, though, because I made environmental changes years ago. (Basically use my words...I gave up my communication board.)

I am going through all the steps of development. It's a pity it is not tracked. The government now says I'm in a coma, so I can't be followed. I don't think people are so gullible as to fall for that one. I don't look like I'm in a coma. 

I do my best to note everything I go through now, but there are gaps. There was absolutely nothing from 2002-2009. 2002 is when this started and 2009 is when this was published in a magazine The rest can be followed on here. 

(I haven't even addressed the cognitive area. I don't want to even go there. This has mostly been physical. Like I said before, I had to get my arm going so I could express my thoughts.)