Sunday, March 24, 2019

My Body Was Cold


When I read the initial medical records, it said I had been treated for hypothermia. This is when your body temperature drops below normal. You  usually die. You freeze to death.

I'd joke with people I know that I must have been left out in the snow. I was met with seriousness. This did not happen. Geesh! Can't anyone take a joke?

I suspected that my body was cold because I had surgery. 

Recently I watched the following show. At the very end (2:44:08), a woman who had an aneurysm had her body temperature dropped below normal for a surgery. I had an AVM. It is also a blood vessel malformation. This body temperature drop would have occurred in me, also.
 



 The body is so cold during surgery that
the patient is dead.


My heart stopped.

Records didn't say how long I had been without a heartbeat. It only said "resuscitated." Since I didn't initially respond, I can see why my family was told that I was brain dead.

Brain death didn't stick. I have been slowly getting better. It is slower than timelines. By the time of the first hospital's finished report, I had gone from brain dead to vegetative. I write now, but I didn't 15 years ago.





Sunday, March 17, 2019

People in comas like PB&J


I've been told I am in coma. I'm being serious. I'm diagnosed as being vegetative. Vegetative is not conscious. When I came out of a coma, I was still out of it. I was made vegetative. So my eyes are open but I don't know what's going on. I've been in a coma all these years and have never gotten better.

Swallowing is a criteria looked at. The test for this is a barium swallow. For me when I last had this test, some barium was mixed into applesauce. I did not swallow applesauce. If a barium lollipop existed the outcome might be different. (No one try to develop one. That just sounds gross.) After my test, I was approved for lollipops. That's improvement!

This is the stupidest thing I ever heard of, I am unconscious because I don't swallow. What's even more stupid are the countless times people have disagreed with me and have tried to show me my mental incompetence.

I'm going to go with it. I am vegetative and in a coma.

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 My order from Lollies By Leah.
Peanut Butter & Jelly is in the middle.


Dear govt,
I like the Peanut Butter and Jelly lollipops from Lollies By Leah. Maybe all persons in coma should be given Peanut Butter and Jelly.



Peanut Butter is on one side. 
Jelly is on the other side.
Video by Ashley Moyer.
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This is ludicrous! Do they even know what a coma is?

Why is it that vegetative was made an open-eye coma? The state must have some inkling of consciousness. It would be tiny; less than MCS, Minimally Conscious State. It's just a seed and my seed is growing faster. In another few years it will look even more stupid that I am still in coma.




It's sad, so sad (so sad)
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd



Thursday, March 7, 2019

Time For Research

This post is primarily aimed at my local university.

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It all has to be figured out, but this is probably going on. A brain injury followed by giftedness is where this video is.
 
I'm writing and not doing the math that 
he is doing.
It's the ability and not the subject. 
 
My brain injury was a stroke. I was to die, but Stanford University did stereotactic radiosurgery. The dying thing didn't happen.  
 
I was A++ smart while growing up. I did piano and guitar and showed some congenital signs of the disorder in the video. That history, plus the stroke, plus the brain surgeries give you a talking vegetable that writes. (There's probably a name for this additional disorder.) The person here in this video does math as opposed to what I do.
 
The incredible thing I do right now is heal. It's slow. I'm still vegetative; my diagnosis is "semi-vegetative." Before I was semi-vegetative, I was all the way vegetative, or Persistent Vegetative State. I had neural repair brain surgery at Stanford University. The hospital where I resided after the surgery made my diagnosis "semi." That's it. I can't get anyone to take off "vegetative." That word is stuck to me.
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Why do I get better? What's going on? Don't even bother to ask the government. Years ago I told the doctor I think I am getting better. I am told that I am imagining it. This was a government program that wouldn't do research.

I went from not speaking to verbally reporting improvement. I am told that it is just my imagination.

Don't look to the government for any help.

I found one private resource that targets the science. There should be others. 

This one goes up to $300,000 over 3 years and should be enough to get research started. If more needs to be looked at, I'm sure it's there.

There is also a way to get local money. https://braininjuryknow.blogspot.com/2011/01/get-it.html (clicks)  I wrote this long ago for a mom in San Diego who needed a wheelchair van. I even have "van" in there. It was successful and the mom was on her local news.

Doners are a part. Send them pictures and reports to keep them informed. The government doesn't even have to be involved.
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The government says I am not conscious and that I am in an open-eye coma. I think they are wrong. The first thing to do is designate me as conscious. Then I can be studied. I believe neurogenesis is going on. Is it one long process, or am I stuck in a cycle of continuing neurogenesis? I'm saying neurogenesis because I didn't write like this before the stroke.

Scans will have to be done. I can't possibly be doing this all from my brainstem, which is all the government said I had left. Other brain will be proof of neurogenesis. It will also show where and what I am wiring to.

Yeah right, I am unconscious. What's all this? Are you also selling a bridge?



Space, time, what's your reality?