Sunday, November 25, 2018

Paying for Nutrition



The usual comedy scenario for an audit is that the auditor is given a mess of a receipts in shoe boxes. That's how it goes here when cleaning a mess of a stack of papers. A bunch of papers are given to me to sort. When I'm done more are given.

With one eye squinted, I go through them. I noticed this last time was easier. I can keep both eyes open more and my other hand was more useful. I'll close one eye because I'll have double vision.  

If I wasn't this way, I'd never let papers get out of control like that. I'd only keep what was necessary from the beginning. Most everything now was filed into the trashcan.


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From how it looks to me, this is how my food (feeding tube formula)  is paid. Remember now, I'm supposed to currently be in a coma. This looks odd. Being able to do this is what makes me "semi." Going through my financial affairs is more likely a splinter skill and my neurological condition PRIOR to a brain bleed was never assessed. (I am referring to playing piano at an early age, advanced placement in school, and leaving high school/ starting college at age 16 years old.)
 
Payment for the formula and supplies are run through my Medicare. They are not paid for. They are given a Medicare discount, though. They are then forwarded to the supplement insurance. I have to pay for this insurance. Anthem Blue Cross then pays for all formula and supplies.

It wasn't always this way. In the hospital I was in a different financial program. Someone in finance made sure all bills for care were covered. I didn't have to worry about my nutrition.


 It's raining here.

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Some of the expense can be considered food, but this is formula. It is medical in nature. It must be medically administered. Also, food can be done cheaper. There isn't any subsidized formula. I am lucky to have help and be able to figure this out. Not everyone will.

The amount that is given as what to budget for for monthly food costs can be used as a flat charge from the government. This amount was given in home ec classes when I was in school. This class proved very important and never should have been cut. Ec stands for economics. This class taught real world survival.

As it is now, I am paying more for insurance. Hopefully I can wean myself from this feeding tube on my own. (That is why I started lollipops.) I financially won't be able to keep paying for supplemental insurance. (Anyone on Medicaid or SSI is automatically out. They cannot afford any private insurance. Someone else would have to do that for them.)

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Coming Back Deadpool Style



I feel like I'm Deadpool growing his hand back.
 

 
I have that general achy feeling after a car wreck, but only on one side of my body. There will also be specific pain from muscle use. For example, on the day I asked for ibuprofen, my right side torso hurt. Currently it is my right forearm. My right side was totally paralyzed from the stroke in 2002, but it started moving some after surgery in 2004. Today there is a lot of movement and it is almost typical function.
             

I'm not a salamander and I don't grow limbs back,



Somehow, my brain is back. I asked the home nurse to add some ibuprofen to my morning meds. Years ago, when regaining function of this hand that I type with, I would ask for Tylenol-3. I usually had a standing prescription. I was in the hospital and also had frequent pain in my head.


Rewiring, neuroplasticity, can have neurogenesis with it. Rewiring by itself means the wiring was already there. These are the people that recover in rehab.

But what about the miracle recoveries, sometimes years later? I believe that to be neurogenesis. The body had to grow the wiring before it could be wired. These miracle people were lucky to have the right environment or people. They might have had the right chemistry going on. Blood testing should regularly occur. There can be clues before a miracle.

All the pain meds I take... is this a clue?


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I'm brain dead. This busts me up laughing. Maybe, just maybe, I wasn't brain dead but brain wiring dead. I'd suppose that some of my brain was still alive. What was left, eventually got wired to; the bit of brain that was alive and not detected by eye was missed. I would think that if a scan was done now there would be evidence of a massive stroke. (See the importance of a scan?)

"Not detected by eye" shows the importance of a brain scan AFTER blood has cleared. A sponge may appear to be used up until it is wrung out. We can't wring out brains. We have to wait.

I did get a second scan. It was never accepted by the government because it was performed in conjunction with an experimental brain surgery at Stanford University. If I was brain dead, that university would have immediately gone to press. It would have made a huge discovery.

Stanford proceeded and the government program that I was in changed my diagnosis to "semi-vegetative." It was obvious by then I was not all the way vegetative. I stayed for another 1 1/2 years in the government program. When the particular unit I was in closed, I came home. The hospital and the government did not close. Funding ended. Other patients were picked up by other facilities. I was "semi-vegetative" and assumed to die. I was sent home.

If any attention had been given to that experimental surgery at Stanford, I would not die from a defect the government left in my head. No, I haven't died. A secondary condition (possibly savant syndrome) then also has to be looked at, because how could a disabled person verbally instruct others on how to do medical care?

MCS, Minimally Conscious State, would have been the proper diagnosis at that time. I've grown since then. It wouldn't fit now. No, there was misdiagnosis and now you have a monster. To that I say live with it.


Deadpool could be a hero or a monster.
Depends on who you are.
I am a hero or a monster.
 Depends on who you are. 



Sunday, November 4, 2018

Ghosts and Dimensions

This is all real theory. Stephen Hawking was a real person. Before he died, he submitted a paper proposing the multiverse.

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Houses aren't haunted, but haunted houses are portals to other dimensions. The movie Poltergeist had it right.

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I'll try to explain. I'll use the multiverse theory.




Parallel universes are the same as a multiverse.

Now death isn't death.

A person transforms to an energy being at the time we call death. We see it as a ghost if anything comes back. We cannot see other dimensions.




You are crazy if you do see something.




The energy being lives in a parallel universe.
It's in the multiverse right next to us, but we can't see it because it is not the same frequency.

Haunted houses are portals for these beings. They are just places an energy being can be seen.
 

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All this ghost stuff is my theory. Hawking stuck to outer space. He does mention "shadow people", though.




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Ghosts are said to be in the fifth dimension.


The 5th Dimension
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11/18/2018

That was a close one! I could have died!
What if I did, but right before my consciousness shifted to another dimension where I live now? Medical records showed that I would die.