Tuesday, April 30, 2013

When The Dead Sing

Later I was told I was Code Blue. I knew what was going on, though, when I opened my eyes. They were saving my life. I chewed out the hospital staff. I could sort of talk this time around. I went through the procedure to become DNR (Do-Not-Resuscitate). This had happened before (saving my life), but it left me profoundly disabled. Actually this time I opened my eyes before they did anything. I said to the nurse above me, "What are you doing?"

"I'm going to intubate you." 

She was stunned. "Do you still want to be intubated?" She probably didn't know what to say or do.


To all in the room I said, "Is this what's done for DNR?" 

Heads down, they left the room. (They knew they just broke a contract.)

Hospital staff did it...they managed to avoid me in the hospital. I didn't see a doctor for a few days. I only saw the janitor and CNAs. That was possible in a long-term care unit.

Maybe if I had sat up and started to sing...


Saturday, April 27, 2013

I Want ASS

UPDATED:  11/23/2013

The more I think about it, a savant would be conscious. A savant would be able to give all this info. This is a continuation of http://thoughtfulveg.blogspot.com/2012/12/i-have-ass.html 
(ASS=Acquired Savant Syndrome)

I decided to look more into this disorder. "Savant syndrome is a rare, but extraordinary, condition in which persons with serious mental disabilities, including autistic disorder, have some ‘island of genius’ which stands in marked, incongruous contrast to overall handicap." This can happen after a brain injury, "however, ‘acquired’ savant skills can also appear, when none were previously present, in neurotypical individuals following brain injury." http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2677584/

Being female, this here caught my eye, "Reports of female savants continue to be relatively few." It goes on to say,"Males outnumber females by an approximate 6:1 ratio in savant syndrome." http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2677584/ Not only is this rare in rare, but I am female, making this even more rare.

Here's something to think about, "Savant syndrome, both in the congenital and acquired types, provides compelling evidence of remarkable brain plasticity. Indeed, brain plasticity will be a central aspect of all neuroscience research in the decades ahead. Until fairly recently, there has been what Doidge (2007), in his book The brain that changes itself, calls ‘neurologic nihilism’. This was a generally pessimistic view of the ability of neuronal tissue to regenerate and rewire itself in the face of injury or disease." http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2677584/ Am I a culmination of medicine and life experiences? Brain plasticity plays a major role.

I don't really fit into the areas of savant skills. "Considering all the abilities in the human repertoire, it is interesting that savant skills generally narrow to five general categories: music, art, calendar calculating; mathematics, and mechanical or spatial skills." [Close to this. I took out examples and non-pertinent phrases.] http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2677584/ The closest you could get is saying writing is an art form. I've done many of these pieces. There are well over a 100 posts between my 2 blogs.

Could it be computers in general? I've lost track of all the accounts I have. Before signing up for something I will first do a password recovery. There's no sense in making a new account. Computers are too new and therefor not included in savant syndrome skills.

This was interesting to me, "Other skills have been reported less often, including: prodigious language (poly-glot) facility; unusual sensory discrimination in smell, touch or vision including synaesthesia; perfect appreciation of passing time without benefit of a clock; and outstanding knowledge in specific fields such as neurophysiology." http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2677584/ It's no secret that I have a knowledge of neurology. This entire paper would be a reflection of that. "Think of all those miles and miles of myelin sheath Ms. Ronson had to laboriously re-knit to heal and reconnect her severely damaged brain," is also neurological. http://spiritualscientific.com/DrMorseBlog/2010/11/09/angela-ronson-part-3-how-our-brain-is-connected-to-the-universe/ I don't know how I did that.

The person with savant syndrome lacks purpose. Something I have. "Cognitive skills, logical skills, and analytical skills are absent in savants." http://beatsme.hubpages.com/hub/Savant-Syndrome That's something I do. This neuro stuff is hard to understand and I make it more understandable. That means I analyze it.
If I am given savant syndrome, then I am conscious. This has to be considered. It's a strange Catch-22. I don't know how possible this is, seeing that it is so closely tied to politics.

What is the purpose of keeping me not conscious anyway? Does it mean someone will have to work if I am? Not being conscious means to me I am just a slave to this brain injury.


I WANT acquired savant syndrome. I would like to be conscious. I want ASS.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

I'm a Talking Head

A while ago there was a popular band called Talking Heads.

It isn't the "same as it ever was"  as he says.

That's basically all I am, a talking head. Actually I'm a talking head and an arm. Oh, everything is all there. The only things that work consistently, though, are my head and this one finger I type with. More will most likely work in the future, but it has taken this long to get these going.

It's taken a long time for that head and arm to work. I've put those ideas here on how to get an arm to work. It's not that crazy. Look up Edward Taub sometime. He's doing it. I just take his stuff further.

I had to find a way to get all this stuff out. I guess the ideas started with me, like that arm thing.  I had to get an arm to work. Now that I can get the ideas out to you, I can think of all kinds of stuff....

 (I knew I was going to fly.)

*Taub's stuff is not yet covered by insurance. 

Updated 4-17-2014